Haven't posted in a while

I have been doing alright these past few weeks. A little tired at times and people telling me I look drained and 'sick', but I have felt decent enough to do things normally (for the most part). I am not looking forward to work, but I am looking forward to start a normal routine in the week.
I will have to have surgery to remove the tumor, but not too sure when that will take place. I am guessing in January. I have an appointment to see Dr. Travis next week that should clarify it.
Christmas was good with Jen's family and I missed talking to my family on Christmas day for the first time in many years. Made me sad, but it was busy and the times just didn't happen for us. We spoke on the 27th through Skype.
New Years is ahead and I am hoping for a better year in 2011 than in 2010. Cancer is a part of my life now and I'm becoming used to the fact that I have it. I hope it goes away in 2011.

Starting to come around

I'm starting to feel a little better these days. I guess it takes a few days to get out of my system. My stomach area feels very bloated and full all the time. I felt this during the last cycle and its another things that goes away after about a week. The rash on my back still hasn't gone away but I see the Dr. Friday so that will be good for him to see it. Looking forward to a cancer free Christmas!

Not a good weekend

After a solid week in the chair getting treatment I felt my body going south on Thursday night and all day Friday. I was hoping that the weekend would bring me back to life considering that I didn't have to actually take the chemo medications, but that wasn't the case. I got worse throughout the weekend. I don't really remember it much at all. I simply laid on the couch and was a zombie. I felt the worst I have in a long time and probably since that first week. I got my Neulasta (boost WBC) shot on Saturday morning and then I got a bad rash all over my mid section. Jennifer took great care of me, but I couldn't even play with Lachlan at all. I was simply watching my family move around me and couldn't participate. I slept a little Sunday arvo and got to bed early Sunday night. Of course I woke up @ 6am wanting to eat. Thats another thing. I have gained too much weight during these last few months and I'm disgusted in that. I have put my energy into getting better and I have found that it means I eat more. Then I don't burn it off and it accumulates. I know I will get it off but it will take a long time. I also thought what was life without knowing that I had a tumor, or cancer? Will I always be thinking about the tumor inside of me? Will it hold me back from pushing beyond the comfort zone? I was so used to pushing myself to the highest limit when  I was younger, but will that change now that I have this holding me back? I'm not too sure. It has been a rough weekend and today I'm trying to get better. I just got back from a 25 min walk with Dot. Nice and easy. To get some fresh air into my lungs as I have been couped up in the house for too long.
The rash is getting better, but the last thing I want is another IV in my arm pumping me with antihistamines. My veins are shot.

Finished!

After a long day in the chemo chair and just feeling like rubbish I finally got that blasted IV out of my arm. I think it stopped working as soon as the last drop of Cisplatin went in. I think it wanted out just as badly as I wanted it out. So after a movie and some lunch (beef soup & chicken nuggets - I know a weird combo) I am  waiting for Jennifer to come home with Lachlan. His first full week of the new day care is done today also. Just a full day of celebrations. Yesterday I couldn't believe how much his hair has grown and how much he changes. Although I am around the house during treatments I am very much out of it and miss holding Lachlan and playing with him. The week goes by and he has changed before my eyes. A little disappointed that I miss that time with him during these weeks. I have to make up for it during my good weeks. Which there should be a lot of nowadays!
I am thankful for all those nurses that looked after me during my time at Highlands Oncology. They really did a great job. Now for my Neulasta shot tomorrow to boost my WBC this week. I am hoping to be back teaching by the end of the week as long as I feel up for it.

Hump Day - Round 3

Ok, so its very quite in the clinic this morning. I get here early so I can out early & have more of the day to do anything or nothing. Today I woke up a little nauseated, but I slept well. I needed a new IV put in today as my other one decided to play up on me yesterday & harden yet another vein.
The clinic is looking very Christmasy with decorations all over the place, even on the IV poles!